Unworthy Ramblings..perhaps?

For us her pride was a worthless dime,
That's what I hear her saying;
Justified is her pain and whine,
It is, I admit, a gory slaying.

All those things that she held dear,
No longer exist save her tear;
Which refuses to stream down and wash away
Those unpardonable wounds that claim to stay.

She found herself arrested in a labyrinth
Of vain truths and lame promises
Of a friend indeed and a pillar of strength
Neither of who a helping hand could lend.

But what she knows not is the other side of the coin,
Hapless undoings in the guise of crime;
Deserting beloveds to seek selfish pleasure
Or is it a prophecy of an inexorable measure?

She sees our lives as a selfish bargain
Of her pride for our eternal flagrance,
But I see it as a heavy price we pay
To wage a war with this world of reasons -

Reasons to live as an image, as a reflection
Feed one's soul to their endless desires of perfection
How do I tell her that it's not easy here too ?
Hurting her has split me cruelly into two .

But this is the only way we saw
To walk the road as total outlaws
I apologize truly for all that has passed
I dearly love you, O Sister of my Heart!!